It's nearing 12 am.
The time is sliding to the next day.
I'm caught in between 27 and 28.
Resting in the bed with a head feeling highly dizzy and moods are deeply sleepy, i could not sleep.
Beyond the window, the flashes of lightning...
Quite an hour ago I had that sae feeling, the same sensation i fekt a week ago. A cool breeze and shiver passsing through the spine... Now it's very near to sleep. At the threshold.
Amme sharanam !
Monday, September 27, 2010
DIARY 27 September 2010
DIARY
27 September 2010
4.30 am Wake up call by a smart cookoo
4.57 am Sprought up from the bed , urinated and again to bed… flood of thoughts, with very short intervals.
7.30 came down..fast preparations , four doshais
8.00 with Saavi set out… Saavi alight at Chayyom School.
8.15 At ES Choyyomkode. Only the driver is there. Called AE. Later Venu SE came.
9.00 EE came by Shiju’s Car
9.45 Nallompuzha. Updated.
Nallompuzha issues:- Rs.357/- remitted wrongly to 4605
Rs.357/- to be accounted to405
11.25 ES Bheemanady
acer AWPO4gv4308416869LE –printer not configured
1 pm ES Choyyomkode
Printer EPSON FX 800 G2PY001385 Seems faulty
Server 01 is again faulty- One zero Prabhash will come at 3.30
AE needs Printer configured
Mavungal – fatal error while bill entry and bill a[proval continues
1.30 home.
and now at 1.52 pm, seated before PC typing..preparing for a nice lunch and rest
27 September 2010
4.30 am Wake up call by a smart cookoo
4.57 am Sprought up from the bed , urinated and again to bed… flood of thoughts, with very short intervals.
7.30 came down..fast preparations , four doshais
8.00 with Saavi set out… Saavi alight at Chayyom School.
8.15 At ES Choyyomkode. Only the driver is there. Called AE. Later Venu SE came.
9.00 EE came by Shiju’s Car
9.45 Nallompuzha. Updated.
Nallompuzha issues:- Rs.357/- remitted wrongly to 4605
Rs.357/- to be accounted to405
11.25 ES Bheemanady
acer AWPO4gv4308416869LE –printer not configured
1 pm ES Choyyomkode
Printer EPSON FX 800 G2PY001385 Seems faulty
Server 01 is again faulty- One zero Prabhash will come at 3.30
AE needs Printer configured
Mavungal – fatal error while bill entry and bill a[proval continues
1.30 home.
and now at 1.52 pm, seated before PC typing..preparing for a nice lunch and rest
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Rainbow northeast
Rains...!
'Raining' that should be the usage as Osho puts it.
Now it is 7:30pm of 26th sep 2010 evening. I am seated in an easy chair at home after 1 hour walk through the paddy fields.
After these spells of illness, panic attack, pallatial knee cap dislocation and conjuctivities, it is the third time I take plunge into nature.
Three evenings .
Some times I wish to make it in the morning, but the fear of dogs coupled with immense lethargy and dizzines, I never get a chance to enjoy the beauty of morning.
Today's evening was roofed with a beautiful rainbow.
I would not have noticed it lest, for a slight pain in the knee, and I raised my head to release a long sigh...and in the north east, the horizon was ornamenated by a necklace of rainbow.
Some joys, some visions are inexplicable.
Amme sharanam
'Raining' that should be the usage as Osho puts it.
Now it is 7:30pm of 26th sep 2010 evening. I am seated in an easy chair at home after 1 hour walk through the paddy fields.
After these spells of illness, panic attack, pallatial knee cap dislocation and conjuctivities, it is the third time I take plunge into nature.
Three evenings .
Some times I wish to make it in the morning, but the fear of dogs coupled with immense lethargy and dizzines, I never get a chance to enjoy the beauty of morning.
Today's evening was roofed with a beautiful rainbow.
I would not have noticed it lest, for a slight pain in the knee, and I raised my head to release a long sigh...and in the north east, the horizon was ornamenated by a necklace of rainbow.
Some joys, some visions are inexplicable.
Amme sharanam
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Waiting for a consultation- panic attack
Clock ticking to 2pm of this september. The waiting room of Dr.Kishore is now filled with 3 patients,. A woman sitting beside me is looking at my mobile and blinks what this guy is doing on the qwerty.
There is agirl in red churidar and black shawl behind the table of receptionist.
This 1 st floor of Iceland seems to be a medical floor. Dr.keshavan potty.G childrens specialist, Dr.Kishore Kumar consultant physician, Dr.jayaprakash surgeon, and a skin specialist, whose name board is not visible from the place where i am seated. i persume, it is Gurudatt.
Shrimathi Muralimaster, Mrs.Smithedthi is here , as a pharmasicist.
I have a 20 % of those nightmarish feelings even now. A sensation of unrest.
I know I will have to wait till my turn.
It's all in mind... Or rather, is it all mind only ?
A person outside is nagging the receptionist. But she is capable of dealing with it.
2pm
hunger starts to strike. I had called Kunnam divakarji to arrange my lunch with shrimathi Vydyar.
There is agirl in red churidar and black shawl behind the table of receptionist.
This 1 st floor of Iceland seems to be a medical floor. Dr.keshavan potty.G childrens specialist, Dr.Kishore Kumar consultant physician, Dr.jayaprakash surgeon, and a skin specialist, whose name board is not visible from the place where i am seated. i persume, it is Gurudatt.
Shrimathi Muralimaster, Mrs.Smithedthi is here , as a pharmasicist.
I have a 20 % of those nightmarish feelings even now. A sensation of unrest.
I know I will have to wait till my turn.
It's all in mind... Or rather, is it all mind only ?
A person outside is nagging the receptionist. But she is capable of dealing with it.
2pm
hunger starts to strike. I had called Kunnam divakarji to arrange my lunch with shrimathi Vydyar.
Thursday, September 23, 2010
The mistook Ascent-Panic Attack
15 th September 2010
Details collected from Net
A panic attack is a sudden rush of uncomfortable physical symptoms coupled with thoughts of impending doom (making a scene, heart attack, not being able to breathe). Although the first panic attack may take place in a distinct situation, further episodes are unpredictable as to time or place.
One or more uncomfortable physical symptoms will be present in a severe form during an actual panic attack, such as increased heart rate, dizziness or lightheadedness, shortness of breath, inability to concentrate, and confusion.
After a number of panic episodes, the individual can become afraid of being a helpless victim of panic. He or she may hesitate to be alone, to venture far from home, or to be in public places. Even when not experiencing an anxiety attack, the person with panic attacks often becomes increasingly nervous and apprehensive. He or she attempts to remain physically and psychologically tense in preparation for the next attack.
Details collected from Net
A panic attack is a sudden rush of uncomfortable physical symptoms coupled with thoughts of impending doom (making a scene, heart attack, not being able to breathe). Although the first panic attack may take place in a distinct situation, further episodes are unpredictable as to time or place.
One or more uncomfortable physical symptoms will be present in a severe form during an actual panic attack, such as increased heart rate, dizziness or lightheadedness, shortness of breath, inability to concentrate, and confusion.
After a number of panic episodes, the individual can become afraid of being a helpless victim of panic. He or she may hesitate to be alone, to venture far from home, or to be in public places. Even when not experiencing an anxiety attack, the person with panic attacks often becomes increasingly nervous and apprehensive. He or she attempts to remain physically and psychologically tense in preparation for the next attack.
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Server mother board changed by nithin yesterday. Today sijoy attended networking issue and solved.
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