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It's Durgaashtami.
Ohm Hreem Dum Surgaaye Namah :

My experiments with Mind !

The out of routine experiences started on 15-9-10.
Till today 11-1010, I am not relieved. Today morning, from 9 am onwards a feeling of chill in head, and an incoherance in body mind allignment. Loss of synchronization.
Riding my Bike for 5Kms became a herculian task.
kSEB car tata indica picked me from market. Even in the car, i was feeling dizzy. Tried on all known techniques to relax, but in vein.
Shiju drove the car, in a sinatize health. padne, trikaripur, pilicode, kayyur, nallompuzha, bheemanady, and choyyomkode offices were visited to update Oruam software to 1.5:5

Diary 07 October 2010

8.41 am - Just now came from Nileshwram. Saavi will get the bus. Charming in new Violet Saree.
Bought Jasmine for amma.
Merchant Vishwanathan Swamy expired is the current local flash.
Hibuscus juice gulped, Dhanyakaadi kashaayam....
Oruma 1.5.5 -R updatio package dowloaded.
Moods are getting tranquilised.
A fine morning with a silver light. Sun Shines behind the veil of white clouds.

Quotes from Books I read

remember that evey thing changes

VBT- page 629(you !)
you are the problem. The cause is within you.

VBT- page 819
only decision will give you action, and only action will become transformation.
If you are really interested in a deep revolution within you, then decide - and dont go on postponing.

Dont be too phylosophical, that is dangerous. And waste of time.
So be decisive.

Notebook 3 October 2010

Rains....
In the bed... A sensation of weight in head.
She in blue rob
night in wet dark rob with laces of lightning and jingling sound of thunder.
Even in this small locality and society, every minute and each individual appears to be cross section of psychogical specimens

Diary Oct 3 rd 2010

a nice sunday, that's how it should be. Mornig walk from 8 to 9:00 slept from 10 to 11 , saavi and amma went for attending the pindam funcion of Edakkanam Vijayettan at 11 am.

12.30 to 2 pm at Ammath Balakrishnan ammavan, deepu sunil's grahashanthi.

2- 2.30 pindam Edakkanam
3:30- 5 at home with saavi, a nice sleep.
A half Ok not fully OK dingo.
A slight tiredness prevails all through.
5 pm Babu(killer babu) called and then came for taking scooter. kL 14 A 9720. Gave 1700.
6 pm set out to Nileshwaram.
6:30 at pattena maman
7:30 jawan corner with Kesh and pappettan.
8 pm rithu, from alinkeezhil tomato.
Now Viewing Shivaaji of Rajani kanth and 'kabhi khushi kabhi gum' in sony TV.
A slight rain out side.
Amma went to sleep. saavi , after cleaning works of home went for bath.
chappathi and curry for the dinner.
Mamaaji was a bit feverish yesterday and consulted thejaswini today.

Notebook 3-10-10

It's really a struggle. A tiresome effort to stand on legs.
The anxiety of another panic episode haunts in every step.
Mind has become a waggabond. Thoughts loiter in the marketplaces, snowclad mountains, dark valleys, scrotching deserts and in unknown labrynths.
Dr.Kishore Kumar and TKS krishnan prescribed Tab serlift, nexitol plus and revotril.
Swamy Niramalandagiri Maharaj suggested a long intake of medicines starting with Saraswatharishtam !
It is 10.30 am of a fine morning in October.
A sunny day.

Synchro October 2010

At about 6.30 pm when sitting and chatting with saavi in the computer room, a flash of thought , and called to amma for remoting the channel to Sandhya deepam,
and it was Girishji, talking aboutn Seetha Devi...Swarnamaan...Vyamoha tyagam.. Vyathichalanam.

Diary 01 October 2010

Today Kanni 15 of Malayalam Calendar
A bright day till noon, with clouds moulding in evening and mild rain now.[7.07pm]
Saavi is preparing a black leamon tea...
Asthamaya was at 6.17 pm

A wake up call from pappa hit me up from my bed at 7.30 am, rushing through the routines, with two teas, one small banan and a 1/2 Tab serlift, jumped to bike and with saavi rode to Nileshwaram. She just gor the KSRTC bus to Kayyur.
The call from Vellur was to search for Tata steel at Nileshwaram Gajanan traders.
But later they decided to get it from Payyannur itself
Tuyyam Ganapathiyettan KTC sponsored the breakfast of three stiff idlis and sambar.

Visited Nileshwram Section Office where a conference was going on.
AE said "fatal error" message displayed while creating a demand.

Went to Kallamvalli to get Buttermilk.
The burning sensation and fatigue persists.

Now I am sitting before my home PC, surfing for some good eBooks.
Thoughts shift from one to other like a monkey just as in the anecdotes of Upanidhads.

Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton, when searching for the "Spontaneous evolution".

Dinner may be enriched by Chappathies. She is in the Culinary Lab.